slowly but surely

Posted: November 17th, 2010 | Author: | Filed under: health care, yoga | Tags: , , | Comments Off on slowly but surely

I was much encouraged in class today by my yoga teacher, Cyndi Lee, when she noted that I’m improving :-D. I even surprised myself by kicking up into forearm stand on the first attempt. “Go me!” I thought. But in the next breath, I was humbled when I couldn’t get up again. Isn’t it weird that you just can’t will your body to do things it doesn’t want to do? As I looked around the room and saw all the advanced yogis bending their bodies into positions I could’t quite get into, doubts surfaced into my head. Can I really go through with teacher training? Who wants to learn from someone who can’t do all the asanas herself? Will I even be accepted? And if I don’t get accepted for the Jan/Feb 2011 TT, I wondered what I should do with the tuition refund. LOL. But then I grounded myself and noted that I can feel my strength and flexibility improve from week to week. It does get easier and I just have to keep at it. I wish my twenty-something self kept at it more rigorously than it did. But folks do yoga into their 50s and 60s or even 70s, so at 30-something, I’m still a young practitioner in that sense. And then I think of those whom I can teach …my mom, her friends, my sister, her husband…there are plenty of people I can help with teacher training under my belt >_<. Luckily, work has been slow and my project has not kicked off yet so that allows me to go to as many classes as I possibly can.

And speaking of bodily phenomenon that you have no control over – my left ear is clogged. It’s been like that for about 5 days now and I’ve just sort of sat back to experience sounds through a muffled sheath. Can’t imagine what deaf people must go through! I went to my doctor but other than telling me to get Debrox after subjecting me to a rather uncomfortable 5 minutes where she shot high-pressure water into my ear (convincing me again that she is the worst doctor on the face of the earth), she did not help me at all. It’s really time for me to find a new primary physician. Meanwhile, I’m exploring home remedies.