Posted: February 24th, 2011 | Author: | Filed under: meditation | Tags: , , | Comments Off on Karma

Last night I went to the final dharma talk of a series that David Nichtern gave at OM Yoga. It was about Karma – how to recognize our habitual tendencies and how to shift those habits with a dedicated meditation practice. I’ve always thought a lot about karma as a kid (and heard it about it frequently during dharma talks at temples, with Dad, etc). The whole idea of cause and effect was somehow reassuring to me since I felt empowered to control the future in a way.   And if you believe in lifetimes, then you can affect future lives.  It’s all so simple.  I think of it as a credit/debt system. You build up good credit or you build up debt.  And then you’ll have to pay up or redeem your good fortune. Sometimes, I feel funny about paying money to listen to dharma talks since I’ve always had free access to them. But I find David’s talks enjoyable and enlightening and filled with good reminders.  (Will be going to another one next Monday).   During the discussion, I asked David to talk about linkages and why there’s seemingly an uneven distribution of “karma.”  Since he made an analogy to washing dishes (if you don’t do the dishes today, they’ll be there tomorrow), I asked why it seems like we have to do other people’s dishes sometimes.   He thought I was dealing with a personal issue but I was really just thinking of the world at a macro level. Why does it seem like some people are just always down and out and others have good fortune even though it doesn’t seem like they deserve it? As an adult, I’ve often wondered why some people don’t “get what’s coming to them.”  Or maybe I just don’t see it. If I could have one superpower, it would be to see the inner workings of karma.  Like maybe there’s an app that let’s you see the direct effects of certain actions.  But I know it’s not a one to one relationship.  It’s just that when you hurt in some way or you see a group of people hurt (through no visible fault of their own), you want that hurt to happen to the perpretrator.

Meditation helps us to slow down and see what’s going on before reacting, and therefore shift “karma”.  It’s definitely something I need to work on.  Having a practice would probably have prevented the numerous battles I’ve had with family members and loved ones.   Yesterday, I hurt V because I unconsciously rolled my eyes as he was telling me something.   During the talk, I kept reflecting back to that moment.  Because of my action, I caused a bunch of negative emotions which didn’t have to happen. Yeah, karma.

Suffering and Impermanence

Posted: February 4th, 2011 | Author: | Filed under: random | Comments Off on Suffering and Impermanence

Zoc Doc

Posted: February 2nd, 2011 | Author: | Filed under: health care | Tags: , | Comments Off on Zoc Doc

ZocDoc is an awesome site.  That’s how I found the ear specialist who helped me and that’s how I found my new ob-gyn.  Since I’m approaching a certain age, I thought I should find a “real” doctor instead of going to my primary physician who doubled as both.  😛   I’ve been going to my primary doctor for over 5 years and have had one bad experience after another.  Nothing major but it all adds up.  My first appointment with Dr. Fong was just wonderful.  That’s saying a lot since going to a “female” doctor is probably in my top 5 most dreaded events in life.  She was warm, friendly and knowledgeable, and didn’t shrug off my questions with bored disinterest.  Comparing her and my former doctor is like day and night.  I wonder if her being Asian had anything to do with how I felt in her presence but I doubt it.  She was just someone you feel you can talk to and depend on from day one.   Better yet, I told her I wanted to find a new family doctor and she recommended someone who has an office close to where I work.  Double score!  🙂